Butterflies

Trudging up the beaten down path
The bus, finally arrives
Like a lonely rock, now parked in the vast ground
Flooding fast, we pour out the door
As I walk I spot this boy, on him my eyes are bound
These feelings I have buried for so long
But I know he feels this way too
His beauty radiates from deep within
Moments pass, he catches my glance
I wave at him, releasing a small grin
Should I allow myself to take this chance?
My Heart is racing
Butterflies fluttering violently inside of my chest
This fear of love I must start facing
My feelings must be expressed
I feel as though I’m about to ignite
I cant hold this in any longer
Hopefully things will turn out just right
I don’t quite know what to say
I care so much for him yet I fear him too
He is the one I want to be with each and every day
I desire every moment of his attention
Every slight Glance, every long gaze.
I want to feel the sensation of knowing
That you are part of my life
Walking up to him I let my words start flowing
After all, what harm can be done in being rejected?
If all it takes is being cast-off to feel loved
Then the end is well worth it.

Written Proof

God Almighty,
Creator of all that we see,
He does not leave humankind
Not without his guidance and direction.
He has placed His thoughts into words
In order to benefit us.
God has revealed Himself
through the instrument of words.
Moses prophesied of a coming prophet
similar to himself,
Whose words the bible;
encourages us to see.
The apostle Peter
Did Identify this great prophet
To be Jesus Christ
As god’s own son
He is the ultimate prophet
No doubt, his words are;
The very essence of prophecy,
We should listen carefully
To what he has to say.
Regarded as a true witness,
The old testament is.
God’s dealings with; and divine instruction;
For all of humanity.
His teaching and conversations,
Were stuffed astoundingly full;
Saturated with quotes and illusions
From the Hebrew bible.
Clearly our creator did Inspire
This divine message,
Which was Revealed
Through apostles and the prophets.
And the Patriarchs too.
Through flaming fire in a bush,
And in a pillar of a cloud.
Through prophesy of sons and daughters,
And old men and their dreams
Through the vision of young men
And through Jesus’ ministry
God himself was revealed.
Through the use of his word,
He called attention towards;
All of the elements in creation.
Jesus

Captivity

The silence eats away at me
Feeding on my loneliness
Creating a large void within
These grey shadows haunt me
they torture and torment
I am stricken, destroyed
No happiness resides here
No sound of laughter
I’ve thrown in the towel
My soul decays
From this melancholic mood
To hope and dream and pray
Seems useless now
Emptiness has built a home in me
A deepening sea of nowhereness
Consumes me
Eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds
Like a savage inside me
Leaving nothing
No worthy remains
I am destined to walk through life
Less ordinary
Alone and exiled
Different, disdained
My soul is overtaken by depression
It floods deep within
I worry my way through each day
Wondering what is to come
usually to my dismay
A flood of tears pours out of me
In all my expressions
I try to assure myself that everything’s ok
But who am I kidding
I burst into a spirit of rage
I have questions, I know there is answers
When I try to explain
I am much too weak, to afraid
This is how I feel though
There is no wrong or right
I try to battle with myself
But I always lose the fight.
Intimated by others
To real is this pain in me
I am losing control
My thoughts, they’re going wild
If only people knew what I thought
New this battle I fought
Someone please
hold my thoughts captive
Assure me that I’m thinking normal
Help me to think positive
Please don’t give up on me
One day I want to smile.

Heartbreak

What is heartbreak?
What is this intense feeling
thrashing through my heart,
Twisting it in sheer pain?
This sensation,
Takes a crippling hold of me;
Leaves me gasping for air.
I cannot breathe, I try so hard
Yet all I can manage are short, painful gasps,
My eyes are overwhelmed with tears
My vision is blurred.
I am aching all over,
But the part of me that hurts the most
Is my fragile heart.
Come back to me,
Do not leave me,
You are my life, I feel I am nothing without you,
now that I am alone, I would rather be dead.
I hate this feeling,
My body is numb,
time does not seem to exist for me.
My mind is in a state of chaos,
The world stumbles around me.
Everything is spinning.
I feel sick, my stomach is lurching
As I fall to the floor, only one thing comes to mind,
If I never again woke up,
Would you feel the exact same pain;
The kind that I am suffering through right now?
Would you feel as if there is a deep void in your body
One that can never be filled up?
Would you feel heartbreak?

Person I Long to be

A ray of light shines in
Day has awoken
Yet I lay here sleepless
My body is weary
Running in overdrive
My mind overworked
I lay awake thinking
I feel unsure
Something is missing
I need to escape this cycle
no longer able to endure
My days seem to never change
Like a broken record
Over and over they play
The tide carries me along
This is not me
I need to change
But I’m unable to break free
From this everyday stream
Needing to be unbound
the grasp of ordinary has taken hold
Clenched so tight
Its getting hard to breath
Yet my hope stays strong
I can change
Become that person
The one I long to be
Express myself in every way
Conquer these dreams
Putting my mind to rest
Then I may fall to asleep
Now more capable
To make changes in my life
Help out those in need
Touch people lives In a positive way
And leave my mark on society
Before I fade away.

Broken

A sense of worry deep within
Tugging and pulling
My heart aches as its torn a part
Left injured, bleeding
Wanting to repair it
But its too raw
Frozen in a painful state
Emotions piling up
Ready to burst, wanting to escape
Stopped in their tracks
A barrier is in the way
A wall too strong to break down.
Where do I go from here?
This unpleasant situation
Left me broken
Weakened and alone
Others around you seem to disappear
You walk around as if transparent
Floating through the day
Living seems pointless
Hiding seems like the only way
To escape the outside world
This feeling overwhelms
Floods you with doubt
Keeps you from showing yourself
letting yourself go
How do I move on from here
Is there a way out of this misery
A secret to exposing buried thoughts
Finding the inner troubles?
As of right now I wait
Covered it sorrow
No longer wanting
to wake-up tomorrow

Persevere

Beauty radiates from your smile
A ray of hope to those around you
Drawing closer we see a soul,
Full of immense compassion.
Your heart, though sheltered at times
still shines through with love.
Those in need can always come to you
Your touch on their lives is indescribable
Creating a world of difference
I see a hurt in the depth of your life
Something that causes you to hide
But I see god working in you
Taking a hold of that hurt and moulding it anew
Shaping your life for the better.
Times can be hard
Life can create unfathomable moments
full of drama and uncertainty
But you always manage to push through
Giving a ray of hope to others
Filling them with an awareness of hope
A realization that we can make it through
those hardships that try to pull us down
These burdens that you experience
May twist you and seem confusing
But in the end it is these moments
The ones you wish to disappear
That will cause you to become stronger
Never give up on yourself
don’t ever feel like you aren’t needed
And don’t allow these times of difficulty
To break you down or cause you pain
You are one of the strongest people
I have ever known
Believe in yourself
You have nothing to lose
Only an abundance to gain.