Captivity

The silence eats away at me
Feeding on my loneliness
Creating a large void within
These grey shadows haunt me
they torture and torment
I am stricken, destroyed
No happiness resides here
No sound of laughter
I’ve thrown in the towel
My soul decays
From this melancholic mood
To hope and dream and pray
Seems useless now
Emptiness has built a home in me
A deepening sea of nowhereness
Consumes me
Eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds
Like a savage inside me
Leaving nothing
No worthy remains
I am destined to walk through life
Less ordinary
Alone and exiled
Different, disdained
My soul is overtaken by depression
It floods deep within
I worry my way through each day
Wondering what is to come
usually to my dismay
A flood of tears pours out of me
In all my expressions
I try to assure myself that everything’s ok
But who am I kidding
I burst into a spirit of rage
I have questions, I know there is answers
When I try to explain
I am much too weak, to afraid
This is how I feel though
There is no wrong or right
I try to battle with myself
But I always lose the fight.
Intimated by others
To real is this pain in me
I am losing control
My thoughts, they’re going wild
If only people knew what I thought
New this battle I fought
Someone please
hold my thoughts captive
Assure me that I’m thinking normal
Help me to think positive
Please don’t give up on me
One day I want to smile.