Silence

Staring off into space, time seems to stop
An array of Colours radiates in the horizon,
Gusts of wind, sweetly passing me by.
Alone I sit in the solitude of sheer silence
My mind is continually wandering,
Dwelling in the deep abyss of my thoughts.
What am I actually thinking,
Is there a point to my untold desires?
my inner moments, seemingly taunting me
No escape is seen or heard.
forced to endure these moments of reflection.
Unaware of my surroundings
feeling overwhelmed in this place.
Moments of time’s past emerge
Surfacing powerful emotions, unable to resist.
Why torture myself this way?
A sense of worry lingers, of untold extent
Awaiting answers that don’t exist,
Cravings so intense, still unfulfilled.
Could this be a sign?
Burrowed deep inside my heart
Feelings that need to be excavated,
Dealt with, before they explode.
Exposed and vulnerable,
I venture deeper into my mind;
Wanting to resolve what resides here,
Yet fear resonates through and through.
Am I strong enough to face this?
Is this what I need to do?
I’m unsure and scared, blinded with doubt.
But push forward I must
It’s the only way ill awaken from this state.
Fear is prominent in this excursion
But through fear I am truly alive,
Exhilaration abides here, within my very soul
Bringing me closer to my ultimate goal;
The only way to embrace the future,
By facing my past.